.::AMAZING SONG!::.

"I was born alone, but I don't wanna die alone"
"I'd give anything for a family and an apple tree"
"You're like a vital organ, I can't live without you"
"You're as necessary as the air I breathe"


Stacy Barthe ft. Frank Ocean - Without You 

::SCREAM::

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.................. (sometimes it's all you can do)

Happy New Year to all my readers!

.::THE DAY I LOST A LITTLE SANITY::.

THE DAY I LOST A LITTLE SANITY (AUGUST 31,2011)

My experience was none other than a rich man, poor man’s tale. People who see the need to take things that doesn’t belong to them, tend to be in a mental state of insanity.  Constantly wanting things that is not theirs to feel good about themselves for the few minutes it took for them to achieve their “intended goal”. Their goal in life is to be a prisoner of their mind, body and whatever state or county they reside in.  I’ve lived in a country for more than half my life, where people believe to be one of the worst place on earth and yet i have never experienced something so pathetic, unruly & mind blowing at the same time. Was I a target? ( keeps running through my head) What would have happened to me, if they had gotten to me? That i don’t know but it left me scared for my life and the things in my life that i worked so hard for. ATTEMPTED BURGLARY!

Only because i yelled out at the first brave moment i got.

Tho it scared the bastards away (it was three of them), I kept wondering are they coming back to finish what they started? will they come prepared for the next person who is brave enough to yell out? Even though their mission for that day failed, they did end up leaving with one thing. A little part of my sanity.

::A Bit More Personal::

How many of you have felt this way?


                      You bring out the worst in my insecurities.


I know you're not looking for anything serious right now and the last thing I wanna be is your rebound because I care way too much about you to even let that happen so I'm gonna give you the space you need and when you come around I'll always  be here for you. I am gonna miss those lips tho ;) *12-08-11 3:45am*


All I want is your complete honesty, whether you want to be around me or not. It's like I know you only want to be friends and I get why (I treated you the best) but if we go into the friend zone I wouldn't respect any bitch you get with after. It's gonna hurt like hell and I don't know if i'll have the strength to stick around.
You gotta realize this is new for me. I have no clue what's going on with me but all I know Is I have a great amount of feelings for you , feelings that are new considering, who you are.


I don't wanna be the girl you can't have fun around... As long as I can have some too... Just tell me the truth already... I'm mentally prepared for it... Doesn't mean I gotta like it! But I do understand you, just coming out of a relationship which I'm starting to think I'll never have with you...
Mixed signals and emotions! 12-10-11
Do you hate/resent me for not giving you the chance to not feel bad about possibly getting back with your ex?

I'm starting to feel like I don't belong in your world 12-16-11 5:25am

I still can't believe it (even when I'm around you) that I know you and WE have a connection as strong as we do.12/20/2011 2:18am

I've opened my eyes to a whole new world I knew existed but never would have thought I would have access to... I never knew how many like me are out there!

                                                                                                        to be con't............

.::OVERCOMING DEFEAT::. (PART ONE)

Feeling defeated drains a person out. 

When you look back and wonder, how?, why? did it ever get  to this point.

Feeling lonely in a state of need  will have our mind wonder, do you want to go or succumb to your defeat. 

What’s left in the world?

It’s more than a pleasure to find out, 

every morning you wake up its either a beautiful disaster or a breathtaking success.

Life over death no one can choose, for it’s already chosen without any clues!

when you look at the world and look at your life, where would you rather be? 

in the cold or somewhere dry. 

Life isn’t easy especially when you want so much from it,

it seems like your taking baby steps to find your way out of it.

You go through trails and tribulations to get your reward in the end

but is it worth that rocky road you stumble across time and time again?

you try to be good but there’s always that pest! I call it the devil,

it  always wants you to fail your test.

But when you overcome and rejoice for your blessings

that’s when the real work begins there’s no telling what’s missing


"open your heart and mind but make sure it's cleared when you relinquish your masterpiece!"

.::Speak Life (Poem)::.

Silence, complication, determination on my part
What is the world without distance
I want you no where near my heart.

Heartbreak, there's no end to this
lonely, hungry world
Without beginning there's no life
that will end up in pieces all over this land

Speak life and peace and love all around
in time things will heal for mankind
and death will surround.

-Kimberly R. Lalor

.::ACCEPTANCE!::.

Feeling like you're apart of something when the actuality of the fact is that no one accepts you has me pondering what is a relationship and why does it matter to everyone? You were born into a family, a family who has been put on this earth to guide you and protect you, so when did outsiders become such a huge role in our lives? Shouldn't family be enough? What happens when your own flesh and blood doesn't accept you? Is that when we turn to strangers to help us feel better? Is turning to strangers a way of feeling the slightlest bit accepted or appreciated? Are we fools to think anyone but ourselves have our best interests at heart?

Being "accepted" comes with years of experience. No one really accepts or respects you if you can't give them anything of value.

.::STICKING OUT OR BLENDING IN::.

When you choose to be indifferent, you either gain people's respect or loose it. Doing things because it pleases others make's you loose respect for yourself. So which would you rather have? Having someone congratulate you for doing something you had to think twice about or feeling empowered because you chose to do it for yourself without having regrets? Life doesn't mean the same to someone who is just blending in as to someone who is taking risks and sticking out and facing what life really has to offer.

"Everything in life is an omen." The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

Don't be the one to wonder what something would be like especially if you can experience it for yourself.

.::MISTAKES::.

What are mistakes? The Oxford Dictionary defines the word as "(n) an incorrect idea or opinion; an error of judgement"

Are there things that you do or have done considered mistakes before you make that decision? We never know what a mistake is until we make that decision and not many people think they are making a mistake if they truly believe they're making the right choice. People make mistakes that take them on a journey which they overcome and make better judgement for themselves but why are people judged by the mistakes they make if everyone does it?

There's mistakes I've made, some of which I regret and some I could have used better judgement and prevented. Thinking about it, I have finally decided to leave the past behind and finally focus on the present that's taking me into the future.



“Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.” – Buddha

.::ME, MYSELF & I::.

Realizing no one will ever be there for you, even when they say they "GOT YOUR BACK" you tend to experience they never will and for you to put your life aside to make sure everyone else around you is satisfied or happy you later realize that you're not happy. I've always had a problem with the terms I, ME, MYSELF because I was never the one to talk about myself or the things I've accomplished and to experience the situation 24/7 when someone talks about themselves all the time you start to wonder, why aren't you doing the same thing! You're just as important as the next person!

Brag about yourself even if it's the littlest thing! Do thing's for YOURSELF! 90% of the things you do might not be the right thing but you have to keep pushing so you can become the most successful, conceited, humble person you can achieve. Yes being conceited and humble works hand in hand, it shows you're not afraid to go after anything and accomplish the most difficult task out there!

Be that person who can talk about yourself and be proud of who you are and what you do!

.::SAVING TIME::.

In life there's a lesson for each stage you go through. Whether you figure out what that lesson is or not your life will continue to go on and it's up to you to steer yourself in the direction you want to achieve.

You can't sit around and watch other people take heed to what they want to accomplish out of life. Laziness is a disease that takes over your mind and body and it's up to you to PUSH yourself to succeed in life.

Time's being wasted! WHAT CAN YOU DO TO SAVE YOUR TIME?

.::BE EFFECTIVE::.

Be Effective! is what my preacher said God wants us to be. I immediately thought about how I can be effective and what came to mind was being positive, giving more positive energy when I'm around people, being more effective in life and what I want to do in my life. Being effective in God's word (He has accomplished everything! why wouldn't we want to follow in his footsteps. Whatever you need in life you have to look at it in a positive view. You CAN'T doubt yourself and expect to accomplish your goal.

(According to the Oxford dictionary) Effective means "achieving the intended result".

You can do anything when you put your mind to it. Never loose faith in yourself and most importantly God.

.::DOERS OR BELIEVERS::.

Do you choose to live your life hoping and praying things will go your way? or do you go out there and achieve goals that were set for you to accomplish? There is nothing wrong in hoping and praying for things to go you way but what are you doing to make sure those things will come to light? There are people who just sit around expecting things to be handed to them, they don't break a sweat or tear, and when things do go their way they find it hard to fathom what's in front of them, but the ones who put blood, sweat and tears into the things they try to acquire feels like their work isn't good enough or maybe they are trying too hard. Is it fair? We were put on this Earth for a purpose and it's up to every last one of us to find out for ourselves what that destination is! We can't just sit back and believe everything will go our way because it won't!

DO UNTIL YOU SUCCEED! WORK & LIVE YOUR LIFE TILL THE END AND ALWAYS REMEMBER PUT TO GOD FIRST!

.::DO WHAT IT TAKES::.

So I've basically been neglecting my blog and it's not because I choose to, I have so much to say and I've been experiencing a lot lately and I just don't know how to say what I need to say anymore. I've been getting a great amount of feedback and it's very interesting in hearing what my readers have to say about some of the topics I've posted. I'm going to try my hardest to keep my blog updated, so I hope you guys are ready to keep up ;)

Growing up I've always heard "Oh my God, your so skinny, you should be a model," then one day it actually became a dream of mine. Being skinny isn't the only aspect of what it takes to be a model. There's a lot of work you have to do to pursue that dream. It starts with knowing all that the industry has to offer, who's who, knowing who your competition is, taking criticism 24/7, how to deal with it and how to adjust.
These few things don't only apply to models or people in the entertainment industry. It applies in your everyday life no matter what you do or what you what to do. If you have a passion or talent for something none of these things should matter to you. Even if your scared just get to your happy place and DO UNTIL YOU SUCCEED!! You'll never know how something will turn out until you at least try and put yourself out there. Know that you have family who'll support you and even your friends that should be enough motivation and if any one's against you just know God is always watching over you.

There's plenty of users in this world you have to know how to weed them out of your life. They are the ones that always come around when your doing well and they see that your actually doing something with your life than just sitting around watching TV. Yes I have had a few of those and trust me it's not hard to know when they come around. Users are also the ones who silently hope for you not to succeed. Please don't let them bring you down.
Always stay true to yourself and your passion/dream no matter what the circumstance!


IF WE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING, WE WOULDN'T BE ANYBODY!!

.::UNBIASEDWRITER.COM::.

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-unbiasedwriter.com

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.::2010::.

What will the New Year bring? I'm hoping it will bring me peace of mind and a lot more understanding of my life and purpose.

While the Holiday's are right around the corner, I'm happy to see it come and go. This year(2009) has been more down than up for me. While Lot's of good things happened it just wasn't my year.

I've met some really great people who I've become really good friends with, and even though I use that term very lightly, It's something that I've decided to give a chance. I've also dropped a lot of people out of my life. The ones that always seem to bring the drama and negativity around. I've also come across a lot of inconsiderate people who takes nothing serious. All they do is try to steer you in the wrong direction, think they know everything there is to know and hate on you while they pretend to be your "friend".

I've met people who have inspired me to try different things and who have motivated me into pursuing those things and also people who tried to bring me down (as if I wasn't good enough for my dreams and aspirations).

I'm making the year 2010 the year 2009 wasn't for me. I appreciate all those who supported me, all who supports me and will continue to do so in the future. If you have a dream or something you absolutely love doing DON'T let anyone step in your way or TRY(because that's all they can do) to bring you down. Keep your head up, keep your faith and I'm sure 2010 will be your year too!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS AND HAVE A PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR!!

.::WHAT MAKES A FEMALE HAPPY?::.

A lot of guys wonder how they can make their girl or women in general happy? Are women ever really happy when it comes to guys? Or do they just put on a front?

.::Lesson Learned::.

Disappointment, Betrayal, Deceit! As my mom always told me growing up" yuh nuh gi nobady money fi pu dung"(you didn't give anyone money to put down SO DON'T EXPECT ANYTHING FROM ANYONE). These are just a few more lessons you have to go through in life. Never depend on anyone for anything especially happiness because your only looking for a let down! If they can't make themselves happy why would they want to see you happy.

A lot of people go through life saying one thing and end up doing something totally different. Posers? I think so.

Who can you really count on in life to be there for you during the good or the bad? Everyone has there own agenda and guess what your not apart of it. People do things simply because they want to and they can't ever be wrong about a situation but hey there's nothing wrong with that because we all do it at some point.

Doing something without thinking especially if it involves other people is one of the most selfish things anyone can do especially if it affects them in a negative way or put them in a situation where they can't decide or even think for themselves. When someone wants you to do something for them its no problem but if you ever need the favor in return its like a huge deal to even think about it much less go through it.
WHAT GOES AOROUND COMES AROUND! and its gonna hit 10 times harder!!

.::CHANGES I'M GOING THROUGH::.

So recently I really haven't been the person I was a few months ago and I was wondering why is that. I've been through a lot in my life and experienced a lot of things, things that made me grow up a little faster and more understanding of what's going on around me. I haven't really found out who I am or what it is that I was put on this earth to do, but I figured why rush, why not live my life how I want to and everything will fall into place when its the right time.

A lot of people don't really understand me so it's either you love me or you don't like/hate me. I don't take bullshit from anyone so don't expect me to be fake around or towards you. I'm the type of girl who's emotions show on her face. I'd say it's a blessing and a curse ;)

Lately I've been noticing a lot of inconsiderate people around me so I decided to cut them out of my life, so if that makes me a bitch or some one that thinks they are better then so be it. Coming to America opened up my eyes on a lot of things, things that people in Jamaica aren't used to so it's taking me sometime to adjust to it. Not saying I never will, I'm just saying don't expect me to change for you or change because I'm in a different country because that will never happen!

I'm at the stage in my life where I see things a little clearly and understand a lot more. I constantly make things irritate me and it shows so please bear with me :)

I'm finally making a name for myself and my family and where I came from. I believe in helping people even if I'm in a situation that I can't really help myself but I hope God will help and take care of me. I believe if you have a dream, don't stop until you've accomplished it or at least tried your damn best at it. Don't ever let anyone tell you, NO or YOU CAN'T!!! KEEP TRYING because in the end your only there to make yourself happy. Don't let anyone take that away from you!!!

BE YOURSELF NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE IN LIFE SPIRITUALLY, MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY or PHYSICALLY!

.::HATER(ATION)::.

People feel the need to "hate" on you or critcize you because you look a certain way, dress a certain way or act a certain way (pardon my expression) but why do you care so much?!?! Why do you care how another person looks, dress' or acts? Get a life!!

"Haters" they hate on you and talk shit but you really can't survive without someone hating on you. If it wasn't for them do you really think people would know who you are?

SO BASICALLY YOU GOTTA LOVE THEM :)



I LOVE ALL MY HATERS THAT'S WHY IM DEDICATING THIS POST TO YOU!! MUAH ;)
Song Choice: Hate ft. Kanye West by Jay-Z